Buzznet: All Media by immz

Rarely on Buzznet nowadays...

immz — 2008-09-23T14:50:00Z

From the time when I was totally obsessed, coming online everyday and staying logged in, to..........hardly going on at all. I only come on for like 5 minutes to check out a random page and be on my way, so to those I talk to on here, sorry I don't comment much. It seems coursework has taken over my life and won't let go until I'm done with school.

I am seriously, unbelievably scared about A Levels and I'm only three weeks into the GCSE course.

Anyway, back to coursework at 11pm. I wouldn't mind so much if this didn't bring my average sleeping time for the past 3 days down to 6 hours. I am not used to that little in a row.

So I guess this is a half goodbye.

The first day of school....

immz — 2008-09-04T11:55:00Z

...and I'm already bored to the point where I'm wishing it was still the holidays and I could sit around my house in my PJs on the computer eating food.

Basically, this is what happened: I got up way early so I could still have time to straighten my hair and get out of the house early. You see, there is a race on the first day of school. You have to get there first if you want a locker and the top lockers always go first, then the middle, then the bottom. I ran to the bus stop to catch my bus up to the Tube station and it was 6 minutes late which pissed me off. I also had to go buy some cookies for two of my friends because their birthdays had gone by and everyone likes cookies. The cookies were actually non vegan, so buying them makes me a bad vegan I guess. I saw one of my friends on the way (it was her birthday today) and she stopped me to talk, which probably gave time for about 3 more people to get a good locker. I explained why I was in a hurry and ran off. When I got to school.....I was one of the last people there.

What a waste of time.

Well, at least I worked out that whenever it's someone's birthday I should give them cookies because I'm broke and can't get anything else (except for one of my friends...it looks like favouritism I know, but I wasn't broke when I bought her pressie).

It's weird being in year 10, having classes that don't always have all your friends in them and having classes with people you've never met. I guess you can say there are kind of two sides to my year. The sides don't really talk to each other so don't know names etc. I had Textiles today and about three quarters of the class are people from the other side of the year. I wouldn't mind, but they don't know how to shut up sometimes. Whatever, at least I don't have to sit near them.

That sounded totally bitchy.

We also got a completely new English class and teacher. They've changed the way they write the class names and so the teacher's name comes out as J-Lo. For some reason, I found that really funny. The whole of lunch was pretty much non stop laughs which is what I love about being back at school with my friends. The year 7s are really cute too, asking where classrooms are. To be honest, nobody knows because they changed the names of the all the classrooms...useful eh?

Journey home was pretty relaxed. I borrowed my friend's copy of Twilight, but I don't think I'll read it. My English class have enough work having to read Jane Eyre =/

Pointless journal, but what can I say? I'm way bored.

Oh yeah and I'm getting a counsellor soon, when my mum gets the phone call and gives her permission. I'm starting to think this isn't a good idea. I don't even know the person.

Much love to those who read it,
xx

Enter Shikari

immz — 2008-08-23T06:47:00Z

Takeitupthea-

Um I mean, kick-ass.

Seriously.

Just thought I'd mention it.

Oh, and HAI, looks like they're from England.

Is that the sound of world domination ringing in my ears?

Woah yes, the next 4 months are gonna be interesting for moiself =]

immz — 2008-08-20T12:44:00Z

4 months, 4 shows, I CANNOT wait! I think I'm gonna end up spending all the money I get for my birthday on these because I am yet to get tickets, so they better not run out before September 7th!! =/

If all goes well (and I will do whatever it takes to get these tickets, as long as it's not degrading) I will be seeing the following:

Aiden, 4th Oct at Islington Academy (Which is near ANGEL station, thanks for pointing that out Ela haha)

The Blackout, 10th Oct at London Astoria (This is well deserved after what happened last time when the Underground swallowed my first ticket and my sister lost the second)

William Control, 3rd Nov at Camden Underworld (From the sound of "Taste", this may be a darker version of Cobra Starship. I'm in)

BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE (with Lacuna Coil), 15th Nov at Alexandra Palace (You do not know how long I have been waiting to see them.)

It has come to my attention that every one of these venues are either in North London or very close to it. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO BRIXTON ACADEMY!?!?? That's one bus for me, not all this stupid "take the Tube that likes to trap people in its doors" business!

I am not amused.

Wish me luuuuuuuuuuuck!!

Avatars!! Why are there only TWO personalities!?!?

immz — 2008-08-06T06:43:00Z

Um, someone might have already said this, but...........WHY CAN YOU ONLY PICK AUDREY KITCHING AND HANNA BETH!?!? I thought it would be you know like The Sims games where you can pick like messy/neat or something....

-.-'

I wonder where T4 on the beach will be held next year?

immz — 2008-07-28T07:50:00Z

Today, 8 days after the T4 on the Beach festival started, it has been reported that a fire burned out the whole pier in Weston Super-Mare, leaving only the frame intact. Now, I wouldn't really care because no offence, but I don't live anywhere near there so it wouldn't affect me, but I WANTED TO GO TO THE FESTIVAL NEXT YEAR!!! I wanted to go somewhere that I'd have to travel long (by coach of course, I love coach journeys) and this one seemed perfect because I expected as good a line up as there has been this year (The Hoosiers, The Feeling, The Black Kids, Basshunter and Scouting For Girls to name some of my favourites).

Maybe it will still happen there, I dont know, but if it is, I think its likely there will be no pier with an arcade to waste money on. Hmm, maybe thats a good thing.

For those who haven't seen pictures, here's what the scene looked like earlier today:

To read the full story, go to http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk/2008/jul/28/firefighters

For those who didnt follow the festival (WHY NOT!?!?) go check it out at http://www.channel4.com/entertainment/t4/microsites/O/onthebeach/artists08/index.html

Heres hoping there wont be a fire in Donington Park next. Thats if I get to go to Download. Im working on it.

Well....

immz — 2008-07-26T09:11:00Z

...yesterday's show at Islington Bar Academy was.......interesting. I do see a trend happening here though. These same things happened at the Brief show. The first band is good, but the last two bands are definitely better. I only ever know one band that I go to see, but they don't impress me like I think they will.

Anyway, overall the concert was good. Except for one band. Their sound was good, but they were let down by their lead singer who suddenly decided burlesque is what sells records. You should have seen how the floor filled up as soon as they came on because the singer came out in PVC hotpants, hooker boots (you know those ones that reach the thighs -.-') and a corset. Ela and I both agreed that it was painful to watch and unfortunately we were at the front. And she was pointing in our direction when singing. I was well happy when a tall guy and girl eventually stood in front of me.

The second to last band were really cool, they connected with the audience and sounded good. I need to check out their name though. And they spilled their water all over the stage and decided to let it carry on spilling. Hmm. The last band did that same thing. They really surprised me actually because two of them were wearing a suit jacket and jeans. If it was a blazer, I might have understood, but no. Yeah, so, I thought they were gonna be old and boring coz they looked like they were in their 30's but they popped out some good tunes and did a rap metal style. Sort of like Linkin Park but metal and faster rapping. 'Twas awesome. I need to check out their name too. Gonna do that now actually.

I watched Mamma Mia! yesterday...

immz — 2008-07-22T01:53:00Z

...and damn, how that took me back! My mum must have been an Abba fan or something because somehow I recognised every single song and sang along xD it's kind of like High School Musical (which I HAVEN'T watched, believe me) in the way that they burst into song too many times to remember. So anyway, I will be searching them on iTunes and downloading their albums haha. If you haven't seen the Mamma Mia! film yet, then you really should, it has a lot of funny parts, especially the end. Here is some advice...DO NOT LEAVE WHEN THE CREDITS START ROLLING!!! It's like Hancock (which I haven't watched but have heard about), the show does not end at the credits.

I think I wanna see the musical version of it too now =]

On another note, I am CONSIDERING writing a fanfiction, but I don't know who it will be about yet, or if I'm gonna do it at all. I just have a lot of time this summer and it will probably be pretty amateur-ish as I haven't written a long story since year 7 (that will be about 2 1/2 years ago). So if you have any ideas, help me out......send them my way.

X

Ah, crud.

immz — 2008-07-03T10:54:00Z

I have just realised that The Auteur gig on Saturday in 16+. What the buck.

I'm gonna go anyway, hopefully they won't ask me for ID (even though they said bring some. So they expect everyone to bring their passports/birth certs to a GIG? Hahaha.)

I can't take an oyster card either because mine says 14-15 and my sister's one says U16 (And she's sixteen the day after the gig. Grrr.). Plus, they probably wouldn't accept oyster cards anyway, lol.

Damn, being 14 isn't as fun as I thought it's be. I did not sign up for this crap on my birthday.

Me on a good day...

immz — 2008-07-01T14:18:41Z

Mission Accomplished.

immz — 2008-06-29T07:18:00Z

     I finally got round to buying guitar strings and fixing my electric guitar that I love (and that's had a broken string for at least 4 months). Now that was a learning curve. To be honest, to all those things on the internet saying "Oh, fixing a guitar string, it's uber easy, all you have to do is..." NO. It's NOT easy, especially when it's not explained properly and you give the wrong information!!!!!!!! (I just had serious rage writing the previous sentence, in case it didn't show)

    Jeez, if you're gonna help someone, do it right at least. Anyway, although it took 4 frustrating hours of my time (seeing as I started out all wrong and thought I had broken my guitar beyond repair), it feels so good knowing that next time I break a string (or a friend does) and they have a Fender, I'll know what to do. Smiles all round lol.

    What I do know now has nothing to do with my guitar. I learnt yesterday that I give up too easily. At least ten or so times during my "fixing", I just wanted to stop, rip my guitar to pieces, eat some Bourbons and cry myself to sleep. Very random, how I got so upset over a guitar (and wanted to eat dark chocolate biscuits), but whatever.

    I'm starting to really get back into FFTL (From First To Last, that is). I haven't listened to them for well, 2 years at least. I mean, the last album I heard from them was Dear Diary, My Teen Angst Has a Body Count and they've had two more albums since then. I still haven't listened to the new stuff, but it should be interesting, what with the line up change since then (Sonny Moore is no longer in the band, so no more high vocals I'm guessing).

    Speaking of getting back into bands, I've realised I didn't get over Aiden and have found myself sneaking listens to them over the past week. I have resolved to listen to them (because to be honest, their music is still amazing in my eyes). My second resolution is to ignore bands themselves, only concentrating on the music itself. Some of my friends will know I get......carried away with certain band members (wiL Francis, Brendon Urie, Ian Watkins, Bert McCracken, Adam Lazzara etc.) and I can't be bothered with obsessing over band members. Especially when people (one person in particular) mock their names (wiL Fuckhead, Brendon Urine, Bert McCrackhead, yes I know, awful)

    I'm doing something right. Some will know that I've stopped doing something that was a stupid idea in the first place and it's lasted for about a month now. Sometimes I get really stressed out and just imagine having one, but my current lack of money is probably helping my case. For once I'm actually happy to be broke, haha.

Well, I'm off on a mission to learn how to play Minuet by FFTL now.

Who thought you'd find something like this....

immz — 2008-06-05T10:20:27Z

....at a park? Taken by Ela (stripeylovesyou) Oh, by the way, the "Mimzy" label is NOT part of the picture, it is an edit of my nickname =]

Meh, what can I say?

immz — 2008-06-05T10:17:33Z

I love swings! =]

Do we have a reason to be smiling?

immz — 2008-06-05T10:13:23Z

Yes, it's good to smile =]

Starting today

immz — 2008-05-30T11:50:00Z

I've never been good at voicing my opinion on anything, whether I like it or loathe it. I've always felt that the best...well, the easiest way to get through life was to do what others want, when they want, no matter what I want. I've always felt I should just go along with things for acceptance, just do what others do, say what others are thinking after they've already said it. Just basically agree with two sides of a story when I'm realy biased to one, or none. Years of that has messed up my mind, I don't think I really think for myself anymore. "Oh please think for yourself Immz" is a reminder to myself, one I look at but never follow. Today I'm gonna try and break that habit. Less sitting on the fence, more creating my own standards, thoughts and actions. From today, I'm gonna try and listen to the music that I like, wear the clothes that I want to wear, speak in my own fucking accent (Yes, I'm from London, no, it doesn't mean I need to have the accent) and colour my sentences with whatever profanities I feel like. I'm gonna SAY what I think. No more suppressing my thoughts. I could add that I won't care what anybody else thinks, but that would be the worst lie and biggest hypocrisy of my life. So that's it. I just hope now that I can stick to it.

Oh and goal number two: Stop smoking. As above, I already said I care about what some people think. Some have influenced my lives and what they say does mean something to me, even if I refuse to agree. I know most of them don't know I smoke (only 4 of them know) but whenever they see someone smoking or we have conversations about it, they say how disgusting they think it is. When I think about it, as much as it calms me down, I guess it isn't nice. Maybe I'm just saying that because I'm an impressionable person, even though I know which crowds are wrong and which are good for me. If they say it's not nice and I don't think it's very nice, I'll stop. It shouldn't be too hard.......I've only smoked for about a year and a half. At least, I hope it's not too hard. Wish me luck and have a nice day.

=]

I've just realised.....

immz — 2008-05-27T05:13:00Z

..that I don't want help anymore. Really, if I did get help, then I would be so angry with myself for net getting to where I wanna be. I dunno how to explain it, but yeah. If I still need help when I get to that point (if I ever do get there) then I'll seek it. It's just something I can't live with, but can't live without. Uh, well, whatever, yeah, typing it out makes me feel better.

I told someone.

immz — 2008-05-26T11:33:00Z

There's a problem I've had for ages. When I think about it, I've had it since I was 11. That doesn't seem like a long time seeing as I'm only 15 this year, but it has been so long for me. So long with no one knowing but myself. One passing comment and almost 5 years of my life. I even remember getting upset because someone called me something that was true when we were arguing or something like that because I guess it was something I denied. I've denied it for so long and with all my other problems piled on top, it hasn't been good. I really want to get help but I don't know how to tell anyone. Except Ela. She's the only person I told and I was even scared to do that. I had to lie to tell her the truth and I have no idea how I'll ever be able to tell anyone else. This is so fucking difficult. So many crazy ideas, none of them working. Only making things worse. Argh. Self help doesn't work, it really doesn't. I guess I don't even look like I need help, so I'm stuck. It didn't help, teling one person, not like I thought it would. But thank you for listening anyway Ela.

So you think you know me? (it's your turn Ela)

immz — 2008-05-26T10:18:00Z

Of course, anyone can have a go if you like!

So You Think You Know Me...
(2 Points) My name:
(4 Points) My last name:
(4 Points) Who am I in love with:
(1 Points) Where did we meet:
(6 Points) Take a stab at my middle name:
(1 Points) Where do I work:
(3 Point) What am I afraid of:
(2 Points) Do I smoke :
(3 Points) Do I drink:
(3 points) Do you think Im a virgin:
(1 Point) Do I have any siblings:
(2 Points) How many:
(2 Points) What's one of my favorite things to do:
(1 Point) How many piercings do I have:
(4 Points) How many tattoos do I have:
(3 Points) What's my favorite type of music:
(4 Points) Am I shy or outgoing:
(3 Points) Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:
(2 Points) Whats my favorite color:
(3 Points) Name something I hate:
(4 Points) Name a talent I have:
(4 Points) What kind of sneakers do I wear:
(4 Points) Do I have any pets:
(2 Points) Who am I dating/likeing right now:
(5 Points) How long have I been dating them:
(5 points) How tall am I:
(5 Points) What is my worst habit:
(5 Points on creativeness) If I were stranded on a desert island, what would I bring:

i'll send you your grade...

80-85 Points; Best Friend.
70-79 Points; Great Friend.
40-69 Points; Friend.
20-39 Points; You should hang out with me more! Ask me when.
00-19 Points; Either you're a crappy friend, or you're new friend

My answers for Immz (By Ela, thank you so much, MUAH!!)

immz — 2008-05-20T09:31:00Z

My answers for immz

WHAT WOULD I DO IF

1. You died: i would go to your funeral and anounce my undying love for you and make them play aiden constantly and visit your grave as often as icould to place flowers and poems there and to be honest i dont know how i would live without you if you werent around cos you mean a lot to me ( im dont think you know how much )
2. You kissed me: we got married so i wouldnt be very surprised hehe
3.I lived next door to you: i would spend all my time with you.
4. I found out you were married:well i know cos were married of course unless your married to someone else then i would be very upset.
5. You stole something: it depends what it was lol.
6. You were hospitalized: i would visit you everyday and maybe even stay the night sleep on the nice cold hospital floor lol.
7. You refused to leave your home: i would say wiL is out here with me want to come and say hi ?
8. You got into a fight while i was there: i would shout stop it we all know immz is right about everything and then everyoe would start fighting me as i shout at you to run and dont look back go on without me :)

WHAT DO I THINK ABOUT YOUR

9. Personality:you are such a laugh and you are nutter scaring everyone one the tube and that blonde lady that kept staring at you cos she thought you were going to steal her husband lol but you are quite amazing cos you bully me, i love ya ;)
10. Eyes: i <3 your eyes they are amazing i like to stare at them
11. Hair:i love your hair we can make a mohawk out of it then i wouldnt need the nice mohawk men that like to ask me out for drinks cos i would hev you ! :)
12. Family: ive only met your mum but she is really nice and your sister was rwally nic to chat t when i spoke to her on msn.

WOULD I

13. Help you hide a body? yeah well as long as it isnt one of our friends or someone i love like jonny or the mohawk people cos i know you hate the mohawk people :)

14. Keep a secret if I you told me one? yeah duh thats what im here for.:P
15. Hold your hand?of course married ...
16. Take a bullet for you? yeah i would seriousley do that im prepared to die for you :)
18. Try to solve your problems? yeah of course i would even if you didnt want me to i will always be there for you ehen you need me.
19. Love you? of course i love you. in case you have forgottenby now were married. and i want to get matching tattos with you :)
20. Date you? YES!! lol

HAVE I EVER

21. Lied to make you feel better? i would neve be able to think up lie good enough to make you feel better to be honest and you know anyway that im not very good at lying.
22. Wanted to kiss you? duh yeah when your upset or when your rambling drunk and sober o me that imi good friend and when you make me feel good about myself when i feel really low and stuff cos your always there for me.
23. Wanted to kill you? no way man i cant live without you .
24. Broke your heart? i hope not i just like to tease you when i hug tunz you know i dont mean it.
25. Kept something important from you?nope i dont think so.
26. Thought you were unbearably annoying? nope never.

AND MORE

27. Who am i? im ella your wife , lover, going to camden buddy, and more...
28. Are we friends? more than friends we are married lol how mayy times have i mentioned were married lol.
29. When and how did we meet? we met before cadets i think in science through tessa but we really started to get to know eachother in cadets (YES THE HELL HOLE!!) and you slept on the floor for 2 nights so i could sleep in the bed ... i did offer you that bed and when you said you wanted to sleep on the floor i felt really bad. i hated cadets though.
30. Describe you in three words: funny,obssesed,amzing,the, best, insane. i went over the limit but i had to!
31. What was my first impression?i cant remember probably something like shes taller than me lol.
32. Do i still think that way about you now? well you still are taller then me but its kindamore like theres my wife , my one and only cheating o me with a radiator! wahhhh!
33. What reminds me of you?aiden, wiL, my electric guitar, radiators, grass!!
34. If i could give you anything, what would it be? ME!! lol joking iwould give you wiL or jake w cos it would be fun to watch you guys argue :)
35. How well do i know you?i thibk i know you pretty well but ill let you be the judge of that :)
36. When's the last time you saw me? Friday 16th of May 2008 cos ive been sick for the last 2 days ... i miss you :(
37. Ever wanted to tell you something but i couldn't? ermmm i dont think so uless when im being stubborn and i think i cabt sort out everything myself.
38. Are you gonna repost this to see what I say about you? well yeah thats what i have just done and it tookme ages but i did it !!! yay!!! lol... does this prove my love for you yet ! :)

read the picture below i love it and i think it really fits us <3

sara wrote that on my hand with my eyeliner!!! look im in starbucks :) I think this make cool identical tattoos ... i just need to find out what it says haha!

like this one ?

The people around me need some love. I have love. But is it enough?

immz — 2008-05-05T11:03:00Z

For some reason, I am surrounded by depressed people. There are at least 4 people in my life right now that are depressed but don't want to talk about it. I am fine with that, but I don't know how to help. I'm no fucking therapist, but you know, I WOULD like to help them feel better. I don't know, everything is so fucked up. A lot of people are stressed out about different things, and when you're surrounded by upset people long enough, that depressive vibe passes to you. I have vowed to myself that I will not regress. Meditation is the key, and uh...cigarettes. I will stop. One day. Not today. (Now I hope a teacher doesn't read this.)

Anyway, I think that the main thing for me to do right now is to just to spread as much fucking optimism as my brain could possibly muster. Yeah, maybe that will help. Though I'm not so sure. It didn't help me when people were being so happy around me. I can't even remember how I helped myself. Come to think of it, it was probably the huge amount of music I would listen to day after day that sorted me out...almost. Four bands in particular. Okay, whatever. I'm done writing.

Oh, exams all this week. Wish me luck.

XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
(Do YOU want my love?)